#409. being a singer, a black butterfly tattoo & not blaming yourself

Age: 46

Relationship Status: Divorced

Occupation: Office Manager

Income: $90,000

Astrological Sign: Aquarius

What is something you look forward to every day?  

Getting out into the sunshine and working out, having my dog in tow.

Describe how your year thus far is going, using only three words:

Really fucking sucky.

What is the most precious thing you have lost?  

I’m going to say a precious person I have lost is my older sister.

Fill in the blank: if loving _____ is wrong, I don’t want to be right.

My dog.

Is there a moment in your life where preparation has met opportunity? Did you take it?

I wish I had, so I would have been more prepared for COVID.

In a room full of people, who are you looking for?

My best friend.

When I am self-loathing, I tend to…

Cry, sing my heart out. (Because I can sing, I am a Soprano)

When I am self-loving, I tend to…

Take more selfies, and be in a good mood.

If you had endless amounts of talent and skill, what would you want to be famous or known for?

Singing, activism, and contributing to my community.

How does the best relationship in your life make you feel?

Loved, seen, and heard.

When do you feel most inspired?  

When I’m working out in my yard, looking up to the sky. Absorbing the beautiful sunshine, listening to the birds, and listening to music.

What is something that your inner child needs to hear from you?

It’s not your fault, don’t blame yourself. You were only a child; you couldn’t stop your sister from running away. She needed mental help.

What is something that your future self needs to hear from you?

You did all you could to help and take care of your parents. You needed to take care of yourself as well.

Do you ever wonder what your life would be like if you had made a different decision, and do you wish you had?

Oh yes, I wish I would not have gotten married at 20. But, had I not gotten married, my children wouldn’t be here.

If money were no object, what is one thing you would have an unlimited supply of?

Gym equipment.

What is the most predictable thing about you?

My sarcastic sense of humor.

What is the most unexpected thing that has ever happened to you?

When I was in middle school, a friend of mine had become obsessed with me, wrote a story, and had a plot to kill me. I was taken out of school in 8^th grade and almost didn’t get to go to Graduation for my own safety.

Describe a time that you were in awe of your own courage or bravery:

I was walking my friend & her daughter, when a woman, drugged out of her mind, fell onto her daughter’s carriage. I took the woman and physically removed her, while police watched. I made sure she didn’t hurt my friend or her daughter. Spoke with the police, made sure all was okay.

BONUS: Tell me something good.

Butterflies follow me wherever I go.  A black butterfly was the first tattoo I got.