#332. lexapro, pansexuality & practicing reiki

Age: 32

Relationship Status: Married

Occupation: Account Manager, Handmade Jewelry maker, aspiring yoga teacher, Reiki master, and retreat coordinator

Income: $75,000

Astrological Sign: Gemini Sun/Aquarius Rising/Sagittarius Moon

How are you, really?

I’m doing pretty good! I have less bad days than good days. I was diagnosed with GAD and ADHD last summer and have been taking Lexapro and Adderall for about a year now, and that has drastically improved my mental health! I didn’t realize how terrible it was in my brain until I had been on Lexapro for a few months. It’s like I had a white-knuckle grip on everything in life, and I was finally able to relax. I also feel like Lexapro opened up a door of color in my brain. I had been trying so hard to fit in, and Lexapro finally allowed me to become my true self!

What is the greatest change you’ve made this year?

In 2025, I really started leaning into my creative side, pursuing creative endeavors and finding ways to monetize the things I create. It’s been really fun to do things with my hands and let my imagination run wild.

What is something you hope never changes?

I hope my daughter always holds onto her childhood wonder and creativity. I want to create a childhood for her where she can truly be herself at every point in her life. I like to think of her birth as my rebirth; she and I are becoming ourselves together!

When do you feel most capable?

When I’ve gotten 9 hours of uninterrupted sleep, take my adderall and make a homemade lavender quad-shot latte before 9 am!

How do you nurture yourself?

I attend Pilates twice a week, practice Reiki daily, and spend time with my girlfriends at least once a week.

How do you nurture others?

I create space for others to know it’s okay to be themselves. I also offer Reiki and tarot readings to my friends. I also started this summer hosting backyard chicken yoga for my friends on Saturday mornings!

Is there anything you wish you had said but didn’t?

I have worked in 2 very toxic workplaces, and I wish I had stood up for myself more and told people they were treating me and others terribly. I wish I had asked my nana, who is no longer here, more questions.

What is something that turns you on?

Tattoos!!! I’m currently working on full sticker sleeves on both arms. I want my husband to get more too, specifically thigh tattoos. I’ve recently come out as Pansexual, so I’m very turned on by anyone who is a tolerant and supportive human, I love people’s souls more than their physical bodies

What is something that turns you off?

Homophobia, hatred, MAGA, the patriarchy, capitalism, anti abortion rhetoric.

When was the last time you walked away from something that no longer served you?

This past spring, I discovered a shop in my town that collaborated with local artists, selling their work in exchange for four hours of work per week. It sounds like the perfect setup at first, but I quickly came to realize working an additional 4 hours per week was not sustainable for me. I went to the shop owner to discuss this, and she was very flippant and gaslight me. I immediately walked away. I’m no longer accepting being treated less than or bending my boundaries to make others happy/comfortable.

How often do you feel you achieve balance?

Not often, I’m still working on controlling my ADHD and struggle with completing tasks and deep diving into hyper-fixations. I experience a lot of mom guilt due to needing to take time for myself away from my daughter, but knowing she needs me. I always feel like I’m failing at either being a mom, my marriage, my job, or myself.

What is one risk you took that resulted in reward?

I started over in the corporate world at 28, after working within my field of study (Food Science and Technology) for six years. I no longer felt happy and was significantly drained from working in a school district during COVID. I got an entry-level Account Management job and have worked my way up. I’ve been with my current company since 2023, and I make more now than I did in the food industry.

When do you feel most overwhelmed?

When I’m trying to get myself and my daughter ready in the morning before she goes to daycare, and I have people at work contacting me, I feel so overstimulated and anxious because I feel like I’m not doing anything right.

How do you move forward?

Forget but never forgive, remember who and how you were burned so you can avoid it in the future!

What is something that will always make you laugh?

Silly jokes, anyone with a dry sense of humor, and What We Do in the Shadows.

What is something that will always make you cry?

Thinking about my soul cat who passed away in August 2023. He was my everything, he is now one of my spirit guides, and I see him when I astral project. I hope that I will see him again physically on this earth, but I know he’s waiting for me on the rainbow bridge.

Have you ever been betrayed?

Yes, a friend who was a sorority sister went from being my friend to an enemy once she gained a position of power in the sorority. It burned, and I’ve never forgotten.

What is your greatest temptation?

Quitting my corporate job, fully building my own business and moving to Europe.

What is one thing you feel is missing from your current life?

Freedom. Being a mom takes away a freedom you didn’t realize you had before you became a mom. If I weren’t a mom I would be traveling more and very likely living in different places.

BONUS: Tell me something good.

I just took my daughter to her first drag show for Pride, and she LOVED it!!