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#285. miscarrying, marrying the right person & first impressions

Writer: Devyn Penney Devyn Penney



Age: 26

Relationship Status: Married

Occupation: Sales Manager

Income: $84,000

Astrological Sign: Libra

 

What is the most important part of your daily routine?

Walking my dog helps me switch off.

Especially early morning or late at night when everything is so quiet and peaceful.

 

What is your current happiness most dependent on?

Knowing my husband, family, and friends are happy and healthy. I also love traveling.

 

What do you wish you were less reliant on?

Technology / my phone. I find myself aimlessly scrolling TikTok or social media.

 

When do you question yourself?

Since my husband and I have been trying to have a baby, every month I don’t conceive, I really question if everything is ok with my body. I analyze every detail of my cycle and stress myself out over it, which is probably not helping.

 

What is something that has positively impacted how you perceive your self-worth?

Someone at work told me that their first impression of me was that I was intelligent and driven. I have never really thought of myself that way!

 

What is something you have forgiven yourself for?

In the last three years, I’ve had 2 miscarriages, one early and one late. It is super easy to blame your body and think your body has betrayed you. When in reality, there is no cause or blame. The last year, I’ve had to really look inwards and forgive my body.

 

What is something you have forgiven someone else for?

I’ve forgiven my biological dad for being abusive when we were younger, but I’ll never forget it and never want a relationship with him. I don’t care about him or his life and haven’t seen him in 10 years. However, I could never understand how he could be abusive to my mum.

 

How do you ground/center yourself?

By doing Yoga and walking a lot!

 

What is one thing that helped you through your most difficult time?

My husband was amazing during our miscarriages. Getting me everything I need, taking care of me when I was in pain, and truly being there for me, all whilst he was also grieving loss. Most people forget about men during miscarriage, but seeing my partner, I can see how much it affected him.

 

Have you ever felt like the best version of yourself? When?

When I was traveling, I truly felt free, happy, and less anxious. Everything was chill; if you missed your boat, get the next one. Life was easy.

 

What is something you fundamentally disagree with?

Working your life away 9-5, Monday- Friday, making your CEO rich. Why should some people have millions and others have nothing?

 

What is something you know for sure?

Blood is not thicker than water. Family isn’t always blood; it’s okay to walk away from a family member if they are toxic. Sometimes those who care for you the most aren’t blood related.

 

What are three of your non-negotiables in romantic relationships?

  1. Trust – trust is everything and a basic building block for a relationship. I want to trust my partner fully and hope he has the same trust in me.

  2. Communication – being able to communicate effectively, even when in an argument. I can’t stand screaming matches.

  3. Similar interests / core values – I like to travel and explore and go with the flow, I couldn’t be with someone super rigid.

 

When do you feel most comfortable in your own skin?

I haven’t felt super comfortable in the last few years. However, when I go abroad and travel, I feel more comfortable in myself, I kinda escape reality.

 

Have you ever been in awe of something/someone? When?

The locals, when I was traveling, some had little money but were the happiest and friendliest people I’ve ever met. A few went out of their way to help us when we were lost and wouldn’t accept any money or anything, not even a drink. They were genuinely nice people. I think we should all strive to be like that.

 

What is the best (physical/material) gift you have ever received?

My engagement ring!

 

What is one thing you wish you had said ‘yes’ to in the past?

Spending time with friends, sometimes I would cancel because I was too tired / mentally drained from work.

 

What is one thing you will always say ‘no’ to in the future?

Letting men decide what I wear; my ex use to tell me I couldn’t wear certain things. I will never let that happen again.

 

What do you believe is your most attractive quality?  

Maybe empathy? I find I can empathize with people and put myself in their shoes to understand what they are going through and where they are coming from. If someone tells me they are going through something, I worry about them. I’m also good at sensing when someone is upset or when something is wrong.  


What/who do you want to be when you grow up? 

A mum. When I was younger I didn’t want kids; I wanted a successful career with high earnings. But once I started climbing the corporate ladder, I realized there is more to life than work.

 
 
 

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