
Age: 35
Relationship Status: Married
Occupation: Social Media Director
Income: $115,000
Astrological Sign: Virgo
What is the most important part of your daily routine?
Believe it or not (as a Virgo), I am terrible at routines. It’s been a resolution of mine to be more intentional with routines. For now, I’d say my morning cup of coffee. I’ve recently been DIYing lattes. I have no idea what I’m doing but the ritual is so nice and taps into my creativity.
What is your current happiness most dependent on?
Sadly, it’s how others perceive me. I desperately want to be seen as original, unique, etc. I want people to think I am THE coolest girl.
What do you wish you were less reliant on?
Social media (it’s so toxic but it’s literally my career.) Other people’s validation. Physical perfection.
When do you question yourself?
Every second of every day, usually. But mostly in moments as a mom. My dynamic with my two littles is not your stereotypical mother/child dynamic. They both have had long phases of being deeply attached to their dad and wanting him over me. I’ve experienced this first in my daughter, now in my son. I have tried so hard to be the best mom – loving, supportive, patient, positive – but somehow, they still have had long, torturous phases of choosing their dad over me. It’s a rejection unlike anything I’ve ever experienced, and it’s made me question myself as a person almost every day. How did I fuck up the one bond that is biologically instinctual?
What is something that has positively impacted how you perceive your self-worth? Internally, my creativity. When I’m in my creative flow, I feel so cool. I love that it’s my own, it belongs to me and that it sets me apart. Externally, fresh Botox and subtle lip injections.
What is something you have forgiven yourself for?
I’m not fully there, but I am working on forgiving myself for the decades of self-hatred, for the ways I shattered into smaller versions of me just to fit where I was never meant to belong.
What is something you have forgiven someone else for?
I’ve forgiven my own mom for being such a cold, judgmental figure and making me feel less-than. The older I’ve gotten, the more I’ve been able to understand that her expectations of me were reflections of herself and her own insecurities. If anything, I hope I can be her mother in the next life and show her the love I know she was looking for.
How do you ground/center yourself?
Fresh air.
What is one thing that helped you through your most difficult time?
EDM music and festivals. In my early twenties, I met a friend who introduced me to this music genre, and it healed so many parts of me. The people, the experiences, the beats, the dancing, the trips.
Have you ever felt like the best version of yourself? When?
Honestly, pregnancy. I’ve fought eating disorders and body dysmorphia since I was sixteen. Pregnancy was the one period in life where I felt proud of my body. I felt strong, beautiful. My own muse!
What is something you fundamentally disagree with?
That as a woman, sleeping with many men means you’re a slut or easy. What a gross double standard.
What is something you know for sure?
The right person will never feel wrong. I settled for so many horrible relationships and situationships but when the right person comes, you’ll know. No hesitation.
What are three of your non-negotiables in romantic relationships?
1. Emotional Intelligence – communication, maturity etc.
2. Lightheartedness – laugh with me.
3. Trust.
When do you feel most comfortable in your own skin?
On a night out, in a cute outfit, with my makeup done and a fresh spray tan. It’s not often I get to feel like the baddie version that once existed.
Have you ever been in awe of something/someone? When?
Two people. Hozier during every live performance and my husband, every day. He is the best lover, best father and so cool.
What is the best (physical/material) gift you have ever received?
My mom’s ring. It was this gorgeous vintage stone and I wanted it for so long. She gifted it to me on my wedding day.
What is one thing you wish you had said ‘yes’ to in the past?
More travel.
What is one thing you will always say ‘no’ to in the future?
Empty, one-sided friendships. People, experiences, and opportunities that make me feel small.
What do you believe is your most attractive quality?
My creativity and my kindness. And my eyes!
What/who do you want to be when you grow up?
I want to be the best mom for my kids. I want to be a constant reminder of home and their source of peace for them. I used to answer this question with a 10-year career plan but truly, I just want to be a version of myself that finally feels comfortable in my own skin, surrounded by the hobbies and humans I love most.
BONUS: Tell me something good.
Embrace growth – you are constantly evolving and every version of yourself deserves grace.
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