Age: 36
Relationship Status: Married
Occupation: Vintage Reseller / Painter
Astrological Sign: Pisces
What is your first thought every morning?
What am I looking forward to today? What was enjoyable about yesterday?
What is something you do solely for you?
I sit at my vanity and do my makeup every morning, without fail and I always have. I enjoy the whole process, and I never feel guilty about making time for it.
What is something you dread?
The call. If you love or have loved an addict, you know exactly what I mean. My Mother, brother and father were/are all addicts. I received “the call” for my father when I was 8 months pregnant with my daughter, learning that he died. I now dread the call for my brother & mother.
What is something you are looking forward to?
My husband’s retirement. He works so hard, and I look forward to being able to see him fill his days with the things he loves as he’s so supportively encouraged me to do. I love being with him. I already have our dream afternoons planned out.
When do you feel most accomplished?
When my husband and daughter are happy. They are my world, and I see their happiness and wellbeing as my own. If they are fed, loved, nurtured, supported then I feel accomplished.
What is something you regret investing in financially?
I can’t think of something specific, although I never was taught how to be financially responsible growing up. That’s been something I’ve slowly learned as an adult which has been a bit awkward.
What is something you regret investing in emotionally?
Probably most of my past relationships. Men who I gave my heart, and energy, and body to, who certainly didn’t deserve it. I always gave 100%. But I was always the one who left, so I guess I did know my worth on a deeper level.
What are three things you think are absolutely worth the investment?
(financially, emotionally, or time/energy-wise)
Friendships.
Hobbies that keep you creative and active.
Reading to your child.
When do you feel most creative?
When I enter a “flow state”, either while I’m painting or when I’m playing tennis, and I lose myself in the moment. That is such a high.
How often do you compare yourself to others? When?
Not as much anymore. I can’t pinpoint what changed sometime in my early 30s, but that noise just stopped. Thank god for that. It’s such a waste of mental energy. In my 20s I did let it drive me. I wish I could tell younger women what it was exactly that changed that, but I think most 30-something-year-olds will agree that you start to develop an “IDGAF” attitude and it feels amazing.
What is one thing you’d like to thank your past self for?
I’d thank her for manifesting my current life. I was crushed by childhood trauma, but even in the darkest moments, I wished and envisioned the life I have now. I felt deeply that I deserved it and that the trauma would not be my story.
What is one thing you believe about your future self?
That everything will be okay. There will be inevitable heartbreak and difficult times, but it will be okay. My current self is living proof of that.
What is one thing you learned in childhood that you have now had to unlearn in adulthood?
I think my family situation was so extreme that I believed there were “normal families”. I wanted so badly to have a perfect, normal family. I’ve now learned as an adult there is absolutely no such thing.
Have you ever felt pure joy? When?
The purest joy I have ever felt in my life was when my daughter first laughed as a baby. She was in this soft little pink sweater outfit, and we were sitting on the couch, and I think I made a funny noise and she looked up at me and laughed. I cannot even explain how spectacular that moment was. Not to get too existential but I hope somehow, I get to relive it in my final moments. Great, now I’m crying!
What is something that would feel really good to get off your chest?
I want to be able to tell my story re: childhood trauma. Even though I have no relationship with my mother, I think she would be furious. I have been slowly chipping away at a memoir of sorts over many years, but would never share it until she passes.
When do you feel most in your feminine energy?
In the morning while I’m doing my makeup. Which I’m very much doing for myself, and no one else.
What is one interaction that changed your life?
Maybe the day I met my best friend? I cherish her beyond anything, and I think so much of my success in life is a direct result of her love and support. I often think if everyone in the world could have a friendship like ours, the world would be a much better place.
What is something you want to give up?
I am working on being able to say “No” more. I tend to overcommit myself.
What is something you want to take up?
I live near a beautiful lake and I want to take a kayak out by myself, but I’m too scared. I’m working on the courage to do that alone.
What do you believe is a universal truth?
Be kind, because everyone is fighting an invisible battle.
BONUS: Tell me something good.
It’s okay to cut people out of your life like family members to protect your own energy. There is guilt, of course, but you’ll begin to feel a version of yourself that isn’t weighed down. Take that feeling and let it liberate you. You deserve to be happy, and you deserve to be healthy. The stress they give you is ruining your health and you only get one chance in your body.
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