Age: 26
Relationship Status: Living with my partner
Occupation: Digital Marketing
Income: $60,000
Astrological Sign: Virgo sun, Taurus moon, Libra rising
What is your first thought every morning?
Honestly, how I wish I could keep sleeping. But not in the depressed way, in a cozy, happy way. I am so content laying there, that I don’t want the day to ruin it (lol).
What is something you do solely for you?
I make music, but I don’t really put it out there much and I don’t perform live. I realized a long time ago that doing it for other people was ruining it for me. I only get joy out of it if I keep it to myself!
What is something you dread?
Lately work. It’s funny because I am making the most I’ve ever made and have the job I have been working years for, but now that I have it, it is so much pressure and stresses me out a lot. I find myself wishing I was a barista at my neighborhood coffee shop making $12/hour.
What is something you are looking forward to?
I am looking forward to my future with my boyfriend. He graduates in the winter and there have been talks of engagement and marriage in the near future. So, I look forward to that every single day.
When do you feel most accomplished?
I feel most accomplished when I get through a super busy week and get everything done that was planned. Knowing that I am capable of being in a million places at once and still doing a good job impresses me.
What is something you regret investing in financially?
RENT. I have been renting for the past 7 years and when I think about all of the money that could have gone towards a mortgage, it makes me sick.
What is something you regret investing in emotionally?
My ex-fiancé. I put in 4 years of my life, my whole heart, and soul into a person who ended up destroying me and basically made me start all over again. He was my whole identity, and I had to completely find myself again after; find new friends, a new place to live, etc. I can’t believe I got through it to be honest.
What are three things you think are absolutely worth the investment?
(financially, emotionally, or time/energy-wise)
1. Yourself. Do whatever it takes to be the happiest version of yourself
People. Invest in the people who invest in you.
Adventure/memories. Buy the plane ticket, go to the concert, meet up with the person you met at yoga. When you are older, you’ll regret playing it safe all the time.
When do you feel most creative?
I feel the most creative when I am doing photography. It is my part time job, but I absolutely love it. It has really become a part of what makes me, me.
How often do you compare yourself to others? When?
Every single day. I find myself constantly seeing people who are prettier, skinnier, richer, farther in life, etc... It’s probably the worst thing about me and I try to stop doing it, but it’s addictive.
What is one thing you’d like to thank your past self for?
Never giving up. In relationships, in work, in myself. I am one determined girl.
What is one thing you believe about your future self?
I believe that I will always put me first. I will get the job I deserve; I will have the house I want, and I will achieve all of my dreams.
What is one thing you learned in childhood that you have now had to unlearn in adulthood?
That it is not my job to make sure everyone is okay. I am not a savior, and I don’t need to be.
Have you ever felt pure joy? When?
Yes. I moved back to where I am from to be with my cousin in 2020. I was the worst I have ever been in my whole life. The word I would use to describe it is, dark. I didn’t think I would make it out honestly. So, I packed my shit and drove 12 hours with my dog and got out of here. She and I grew closer than we already were, went on some crazy adventures, and I found myself again. That literally saved me, and her, I think. One night, we went and sat on top of a mountain to watch the sunset and painted - I have never felt such bliss in my life. It felt like I had finally let go of all of the weight holding me down.
What is something that would feel really good to get off your chest?
That I still hate my dad. He left us 3 years ago and even though I was an adult, it somehow hurt worse? I also realized that he was emotionally gone my whole life, and now he’s physically gone too. I haven’t forgiven him, and I don’t know if I ever will.
When do you feel most in your feminine energy?
When I am out with my girlfriends wearing a cute outfit and taking lotssss of pictures/videos. Sometimes you need to dive into the stereotypes and embrace them!
What is one interaction that changed your life?
Probably talking to my mom when I was 22 and finally telling her about what was going on with me. I kept my life so private due to our religious differences, but I finally opened up about everything that had happened to me and how I felt. I thought her knowing would make her disown me or think poorly of me, but we have been so much closer since I let her in.
What is something you want to give up?
Vaping. I quit alcohol and drugs years ago but can’t seem to give this one up. It’s embarrassing and annoying, but I believe I will finally do it someday.
What is something you want to take up?
I really want to learn how to rock climb/boulder. I love staying physically healthy, and I feel like it would make me feel so strong to be able to accomplish something like that.
What do you believe is a universal truth?
Everything does not happen for a reason!!! I don’t understand how people still believe that. Sometimes terrible things happen to great people for absolutely no reason at all and it sucks really bad.
BONUS: Tell me something good.
Me and my boyfriend have been having some health complications for the past year and I think me and him are finally the healthiest we’ve been in a long time. And the happiest <3
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