
Age: 28
Relationship Status: Single
Occupation: Kindergarten Teacher
Income: $57k
Astrological Sign: Aquarius
What is the most important part of your daily routine?
My car ride on the way home after spending the day with 26 five-year-olds. That’s really my first and only time decompressing by myself. I can scream, cry, laugh, jam out, sit in silence. I can make it whatever I want. Whether my drive home is an hour and a half or 15 minutes, it’s MY time.
What is your current happiness most dependent on?
The amount of money I make. I recently switched teaching jobs and got an almost 10,000 dollar raise. I am less stressed about living. I am able to do fun things. And I am in the process of buying a house. I know they say money isn’t everything, but it has opened doors that were not there before.
What do you wish you were less reliant on?
Receiving validation from others. Whether it’s been my parents, guys, friends, family members, coworkers, I feel this need to live up to who others want me to be or think I am.
When do you question yourself?
Every single day. In everything I do.
What is something that has positively impacted how you perceive your self-worth?
Every job I have interviewed for, I have gotten. Whether it was jobs in my career field or part-time jobs, I don’t have much self-confidence or self-worth, but when I stop and think about that, I’m just like, “Shit, girl, you are proving you can do the damn thing. Believe in yourself!!!”
What is something you have forgiven yourself for?
My relationship with my siblings. I’ve spent my entire life being a 3rd parent to them. I don’t know how to be a sister. I never have, and it has negatively impacted my relationships with them. There is a lot of resentment there, but what they don’t realize is that I have always tried to make choices and decisions regarding them based on what I thought would protect them. Was it always the case? Fuck no. But I had good intentions. I tried to get them to see where I was coming from for a long time, but I’ve let it go. I know my intentions were pure.
What is something you have forgiven someone else for?
Being put on diets since before I was 10. It has fundamentally played a role in the way I view food. I have had some sort of eating disorder more often than not since then. But I understand that it came from a place of trying to protect me.
How do you ground/center yourself?
Journaling. Sometimes, I can’t fully verbalize how I’m feeling, but I can write it down. Does it always make sense? No. But it feels good to let it leave my brain.
What is one thing that helped you through your most difficult time?
Reading has become an escape from challenging situations or tough times. I can leave my brain for a few minutes and dive into a book.
Have you ever felt like the best version of yourself? When?
In the moment, I never really think I am the best version of myself. But looking back on phases and experiences, I continue to become a better version of myself as I grow older. I hope and pray that one day, I will fully love myself enough to say I am absolutely the best version of myself, but for now, I think it’s a work in progress.
What is something you fundamentally disagree with?
Trumplicans.
What is something you know for sure?
I will be a mother one day. And a fucking great one. There are not many things in my life that I feel I am good at, but raising children is the one thing I feel confident in my abilities. At this point in my life, I’m not sure it’ll happen in a conventional way, but I will make it happen. I refuse to leave this earth without having children and raising them to be genuine, good, kind, loving human beings.
What are three of your non-negotiables in romantic relationships?
Open communication - talking through the hard stuff, tackling situations together.
Compassion
Dependability and support
When do you feel most comfortable in your own skin?
When I am caring for children and a home, I was born to be a mom, and my biggest fear is that I won’t get to be one. So, for now, I love every child I nanny and teach like my own. While I want to do anything I can to have children of my own, nothing is guaranteed.
Have you ever been in awe of something/someone? When?
My best friend.
What is the best (physical/material) gift you have ever received?
I have a great love of all things Grinch. For Christmas one year, one of my students made me a Grinch box. It was full of Grinch drawings, stickers, stories, a Grinch ornament, and a figurine of the Grinch that the student made. It made me so emotional to receive this gift because an 8-year-old took the time to make all of these items because they knew I had a great adoration of it.
What is one thing you wish you had said ‘yes’ to in the past?
More dates. I’ve spent my whole life feeling like I was both too much and not enough. Too fat. Too dumb. Not fun enough. Not cool enough. I have let it control my dating life because I still, at 28 years old, don’t think a guy could be genuinely interested in me.
What is one thing you will always say ‘no’ to in the future?
I will never make myself small for the sake of someone else’s ego or feelings again.
What do you believe is your most attractive quality?
My heart.
What/who do you want to be when you grow up?
A mom. There is nothing I want more.
BONUS: Tell me something good.
I just got a job in the district I’ve always wanted to work for, in the grade I’ve always wanted to teach. As a result of getting this job, I am buying a house in a great neighborhood!
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