Age: 30
Relationship Status: Single
Occupation: Athlete Management
Income: $80,000
Astrological Sign: Scorpio
What is your first thought every morning?
What do I have today? What’s on my to-do list today? I can’t wait to drink some coffee.
What is something you do solely for you?
I intentionally implement self-care into my routine and schedule “yes” days. Whatever I want to do that day that will bring me happiness or be my self-care, I say yes to it. It usually includes things like getting a massage, going to the bookstore, cooking a good meal for myself or grabbing a meal somewhere, getting my nails done, and buying a new record. I say yes to the things that bring me peace and go wherever my heart takes me that day.
What is something you dread?
The idea of not being able to have kids or experience love again.
What is something you are looking forward to?
Being a wife and mom. Being a mother is something I’ve always wanted, but now that I am getting older, family is something I’m craving. Just having a loving partnership and a family to love and dote on is something I cannot wait to have.
When do you feel most accomplished?
On a small level…when I get through a lot on my to-do list. On a bigger level, doing something that I was originally afraid to do or following through on an idea/dream I had. Being able to push through fear and any uncertainty to prove to myself I can do whatever I put my mind to.
What is something you regret investing in financially?
I’m such a stickler for money. I’ve calmed down over the last few years, but there’s nothing I truly regret. I thought maybe my car, but I LOVE my car and get good use out of it. Maybe it's just not investing sooner and having a scarcity mindset with money.
What is something you regret investing in emotionally?
Men/relationships that didn’t serve me at all. Giving myself up so freely sometimes to have a false sense of love.
What are three things you think are absolutely worth the investment?
(financially, emotionally, or time/energy-wise)
TRAVELING! There’s nothing like it. Every penny spent is always worth the experiences, lessons/memories, and adventure that you get from it.
Time for yourself. Alone time. Doing things you love solo and that are solely for you. Sometimes, it’s crucial to sit with your own thoughts/needs, even if it’s uncomfortable.
Books. But really anything that’s going to provide you with more learning, allow you to escape, or give you a new perspective.
When do you feel most creative?
When I have an idea, I take out my pen and paper and get into a flow state. It can be for anything - an idea for work, my side hustles, or something I’m putting together for a trip or dinner.
How often do you compare yourself to others? When?
Not too often, but when it does come up, I remind myself that I am running my own race. Now that I am in my 30’s, I sometimes find myself comparing my love life, salary, accomplishments to others. I take social media breaks when I start feeling envious of others.
What is one thing you’d like to thank your past self for?
For always fighting for me. I spent almost my entire life being extremely hard on myself and not trusting myself or my emotions. All of this came to a head when I hit a depression that rocked my world. My fight to get out of that place and deal with a lot of trauma is something I’m really proud of myself for. I’m thankful I never gave up on myself and still fight to be the best version of myself.
What is one thing you believe about your future self?
I’ll have the family I have envisioned for myself. That I’ll give the love that I have been waiting and eager to give to my husband and kids. That I’ll break generational curses by giving love in a way that wasn’t always nurtured in me. That I’ll keep finding new ways to love myself through it all. And that I’ll be an absolute BOSS in my career and have a positive impact on people.
What is one thing you learned in childhood that you have now had to unlearn in adulthood?
That my feelings aren’t valid. I don’t believe my mom knows better from her own upbringing, but the way she invalidates my feelings has had a major impact on me and followed me into adulthood. It wasn’t until therapy that I was able to see how distrustful and harmful I was being towards my feelings and myself. I’m learning how to hold space for however I feel and move accordingly. The biggest thing has been no longer saying, “I shouldn’t feel that way…”
Have you ever felt pure joy? When?
When I’m traveling and experiencing a new place and culture. I think, “OMG, I’m really here right now?! In a place I’ve always dreamed about coming to? How lucky am I?!” I feel this at some point on every trip I’ve ever been on.
What is something that would feel really good to get off your chest?
I experienced a sexual assault that completely shattered my world. Years later, after picking up so many of the pieces, I can acknowledge that I’ve grown into a much wiser and stronger person. It took crawling through the absolute darkest of places (s/o therapy) to come out on the other side. But one thing I haven’t been able to shake is a lot of blame that I still put on myself for what happened. Healing is so crazy because I feel so much better in so many ways, ways I couldn’t have imagined, but I cannot shake the blame.
When do you feel most in your feminine energy?
When I am cooking for others and hosting friends/family at my place. Taking care of people is so special to me. I love pouring into others that I love through food.
What is one interaction that changed your life?
Not necessarily one interaction…more of a person. But, I would say my ex-boyfriend changed my life in a lot of ways (crazy to say, I know). Even though we aren’t together anymore, I thank God often for allowing our paths to cross. He really brought a great deal of good into my life. Sometimes I wish he could meet the more healed version of me. I try to not look back with sadness, but instead appreciation. Like thank you, God for allowing me to experience something and someone so amazing and transformative for a period in my life.
What is something you want to give up?
Heavy binge drinking. It’s something that has wreaked havoc on me mentally and emotionally. Currently I am giving up alcohol to really sit with and break down my overindulgence at times.
What is something you want to take up?
I’m not sure yet, but I’m open to learning a new skill!
What do you believe is a universal truth?
Love really wins all. It might seem corny, but there is no other way to move through life than without it. We have so many walls up and violence and fighting with pain is the easy option. Love is the hard one. But it’s also the only one that really allows things to grow and have the best possible outcome.
BONUS: Tell me something good.
God is so good. For whatever you believe in...being able to tap into something deep in your spirit and allow that to guide you is powerful! Letting go and allowing life to happen and attacking it without fear is transformative. We all bring something so good to this world. I hope whoever reads this knows that they are here for a reason :)
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