Age: 25
Relationship Status: Single
Occupation: 4th Grade Teacher
Income: $69,000
Astrological Sign: Taurus Sun, Aquarius Moon, Leo Rising
What is your first thought every morning?
What did I dream about and why? I love dreaming. It's a beautiful escape from reality, and I believe all dreams have deeper meanings. After some frantic googling about the meaning of my dreams, I’ll check social media and immediately go to make coffee.
What is something you do solely for you?
Journaling. I’ve been journaling since I was 13, and I love writing about my feelings, stories of situations that have happened, quotes from pieces of literature I love, and lists of good moments from the past weeks. I am desperately afraid of forgetting about my teenage years and young adulthood. My parents don’t remember any of it, and I want to reflect on how I’ve changed as a person over time. Plus, it would be pretty cool for someone to find my journals in 200 years and think, “Wow. She was a badass”.
What is something you dread?
The day I lose a loved one. I obsess over it. I’ve never lost anyone close to me, and every day, I think, “Today might be the day I get that phone call,” I’m worried I’ll be one of those people whose life derails after losing someone.
What is something you are looking forward to?
Falling in love. Even though dating men is literally hell, I will never give up on finding the love of my life. I think I’ve been in love before, I’m not sure though. We’d been friends since I was 12 and dated on and off until we were 24. I learned a lot from him but can't wait for a new chapter in my love life.
When do you feel most accomplished?
I feel most accomplished when my students tell me I’m a great teacher. Teaching was never my dream, I kind of happened upon it. I’ve always loved kids, so I thought I’d give it a shot. A lot of the time, I don’t know what the fuck I’m doing, but when they tell me, “I finally understand multiplication!” or x,y,z- I am elated. My last group of kids wrote me the most heartwarming cards throughout the year, and every time I got one, I cried; I never thought I’d be able to have an impact on tiny humans.
What is something you regret investing in financially?
Apple AirPod Maxes…. Not worth it.
What is something you regret investing in emotionally?
Resenting my parents when I was younger. Life is short. They went through so much to give us the lives we have now, and as an adult, you learn this is their first time living too.
What are three things you think are absolutely worth the investment?
(financially, emotionally, or time/energy-wise)
Long phone calls with your loved ones while you’re taking a walk.
Paying off your credit cards immediately.
Comfortable sneakers and a huge hoodie.
When do you feel most creative?
After I develop my film. I started a photo album in 2020, and now I have over 300 pictures. I love seeing life through a lens. And it makes me happy I’ll have tangible pictures if the cloud ever combusts into the cyberverse.
How often do you compare yourself to others? When?
Sometimes, all day, sometimes never. My good days surround me with being so grateful for what my body does for me; I have legs to walk around, a healthy digestive system, a voice that lets me express what I’m feeling, and hearing that allows me to listen to music and laughter. On other days, it's all superficial shit. Living in a big city doesn’t help because everyone is the most gorgeous person you’ve ever seen. But then sometimes I think I’m the most gorgeous person I’ve ever seen. I wish women didn’t have this unnecessary burden.
What is one thing you’d like to thank your past self for?
I’d like to thank her for never letting anyone else dictate her decisions (even if they were stupid ones). I’m a classic middle child, and in comparison to my siblings, I’ve always done what I wanted to do. Moving to a big city was a huge risk for me; everyone around me said I shouldn’t do it, but it's been a huge time of self-discovery and independence in my life.
What is one thing you believe about your future self?
I believe I will be a lawyer. I want to go into immigration law and make enough money to take on pro bono cases; everyone deserves to live in a place that will give them better opportunities. Society makes me feel like I have to rush through everything - to have a career, husband, and children by my early 30s. I plan to go to law school during the 2026-2027 cycle, and I am so excited. All of that other stuff will come eventually.
What is one thing you learned in childhood that you have now had to unlearn in adulthood?
I’ve had to unlearn being angry. Being angry with myself, with others, with strangers. Anger was a huge outlet for me to not cope with other emotions: sadness, confusion, and anxiety. Through some therapy and journaling, knowing how you feel and how to communicate those feelings helps a lot.
Have you ever felt pure joy? When?
I feel pure joy when I’m with my family, and we’re laughing. As a first-generation immigrant, the only family I have in the US is my immediate family. Now that we’re all older and moved out, being with all my siblings and parents again gives me pure joy. We’ve never been healthier as a family unit, and I think time and space have helped with that immensely.
What is something that would feel really good to get off your chest?
I had an abortion when I was 19. It’s still hard for me to come to terms with because I was raised religious. I don’t regret it at all, even if it was a painful decision. It infuriates me that some people think it’s something people do casually. It's emotionally and physically draining. I’ve stopped shaming myself for it, but that experience will stay with me forever.
When do you feel most in your feminine energy?
I feel most in my feminine energy after having a day full of activities all by myself. I love taking myself on solo dates. Having my own money and my own time to do whatever I want is so freeing. I love people-watching, trying a new cafe, checking out vintage stores, sitting in a park, and going to see a movie; the options are endless!
What is one interaction that changed your life?
I used to be a bartender/server for a few years. I was serving an older couple, and it was a super hot day; they were sitting on the patio. I was irritated by the heat and the hustle and bustle of restaurant life. After giving them their check, the lady said, “You remind me of sunshine, keep spreading your light.” I almost cried. I never thought of myself as sunshine, but whenever I feel down about myself, I think about that.
What is something you want to give up?
I’ve been addicted to food since I was a child and nicotine since I was a teenager. I’m actively working towards mending my relationship with food and quitting nicotine. It's been a years-long process, but I know I can do it.
What is something you want to take up?
I want to take up working out. Every time I do, I feel three thousand times better- mentally and physically. It's been hard for me to be consistent because work takes up 12 hours during my weekdays, but I want to move my body in some way when I get off work. Teachers naturally get their 10k steps in, but I want to do it as a routine for myself to feel stronger and clear my mind.
What do you believe is a universal truth?
Karma. What goes around comes back around. Every small or big act of kindness has found its way back to me. It's the same thing for bad karma, lol. Living with this belief has really prevented me from gossiping. Stop talking.
BONUS: Tell me something good.
It’s finally getting cooler outside!
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